Nikki

1. If you wear makeup, why do you wear makeup and how often do you wear makeup?

Nowadays I rarely wear makeup which is something that happened really organically, it wasn’t a conscious decision but has been very liberating . I ran out of foundation one day and thought, do ii really need this stuff? It’s not cheap. And slowly I just stopped bothering. I actually think foundation ages me rather than the other way round but maybe I’m just not doing it right! I definitely still enjoy applying makeup when I’m out for the night or for a special occasion, bit of lippy, wee bit o’ mascara and I like to define my eyebrows a bit, if I don’t do that I feel like I look like a thumb.

 

2. Is being completely makeup free something that makes you feel in any way uncomfortable?

Not anymore. It’s actually become quite important to me to feel comfortable without make up, to feel beautiful just as I am, to set a foundation of self belief. Then when I do decide to apply makeup I’m accentuating rather than hiding something I feel isn’t good enough without it.

3. What made you want to participate in this portrait series?

I’m at a point in my life where I’m not afraid to look at myself how I truly am.

4. Are there specific factors (positive or negative) that have influenced how you feel about how you look?

I’ve written this part out a few times now and keep deleting it, there is just so much I could comment on that’s affected my view of myself over the years. But ultimately it all comes down to perspective and a feeling of self worth. Many experiences, specifically relationships have added and taken away from that worth over the years. In more recent years I’ve made choices that have taken me towards more positive influences and in turn I feel better about who I am and that includes how I look. I really was very uncomfortable in my own skin for most of my teens and my twenties. I was riddled with insecurity that I covered up with a brash false confidence and an overt sexuality. For me to be in a place now where I have perspective on that is wonderful! I’m older but I feel younger, I’m SO grateful for that.

5. If there was one piece of advice for the future you could give your younger self, what would it be?

Try to worry less about what others think of you. Take the time to be on your own, trust that you’re capable of finding your own happiness. If someone doesn’t love you the way you want them to it’s not your fault.

6. When have you felt most empowered in your life?

Now.

7. Is there a woman fictional or real that you admire?

This is going to sound trite but I’m constantly inspired by the woman around me I’m lucky enough to call my pals. They’re amazing! Strong, kind, beautiful, colourful, expressive, unafraid, mothers, writers, carers, artists, healers, all sorts of wonder! But most importantly these women don’t take themselves too seriously! They can laugh at themselves and laugh at life. This is what I most admire in a person, male or female. It keeps you young.

8. What quality do you most admire in yourself?

Ooft. That’s a tough one to answer eh? Uhmm. I’m pretty good at letting bad feeling go.

9. Is there an achievement you are particularly proud of?

I think , honestly my biggest achievement in life is just to feel better about who I am. When I look back I was so MEAN to younger me, like all the time. Now, I’m cool with who I am (most of the time) and I feel the most free I ever have.

10. In daily life what are the pressures you feel most exposed to specifically as a woman?

Advertising. It’s just a joke isn’t it? EVERYWHERE TRYING TO TELL ME I’M NOT GOOD ENOUGH. But I am though. I’m beating the system